A small ghost sits inside my chest;
Echoing your name through the black night sky,
While the ceiling is swirling with waves of red
“Nothing will hurt like your first heartbreak”
But I realize it wasn’t the firsts, or the lasts, or the heartbreak;
It was you that hurt the most.
Know that nothing will hurt me like you did
2 years,
I can’t forgive
The ghost scrapes out a cavity in my still beating heart,
Blood red pigment paints these surrounding walls that
You belong to;
You belong here
2 years,
I can’t heal
Stirring poison in your blood coated your breath
with a taste so sweet
I couldn’t help but kiss
I hear your voice beneath the tides that crash inside my head
Busy thoughts ringing loudly,
Clear memories cutting deeply;
I can’t seem to get you out
2 years,
I can’t forget
Wandering eyes, mine pursue you in city crowds
Wavering hands, mine long for your skin in the dark
Searching, but not finding
Reaching, but not touching
2 years,
Nothing will ever be the same